愛上你～不難～

其實要愛上你，不難

你的守護

你的照顧

你的貼心

一點一滴累積在我心

喜歡看你踢球

喜歡看你認真的態度

所以我說

要愛上你

不難

25th June first fight

Papa,

Hope you have a lovely sermon today. I had a wonder one with Alex' preaching about worship. 

Pastor Alex and Danny said hi back to you. 

Honey, I am sorry about making you feel lock of security some time. I can understand why you feel that way. Because I was like that before. I have faith with the Lord that you will have your confident back. I wish I can help to cry out all the bitter from inside you. Like you said it to me that you will be my strength and support me always. Also I wanna be yours too.  

Papa, I know you are willing to take all the responsibility on you. But I will be worry, the same way you does not like I don't know how to say no. The same way, if you torture my baby. 😏😏😏I will kill you!!!!!  

I thank God for being you into my life. I believe you have plans in your mind that you will tell me when the time is come. 

Why I cried yesterday? The fear is loosing you. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ME that I will not know what to do if it is happen. 

Sometime I am worry that you don't feel love from me or how should I present my love to you by any physics way. 

Papa, trust me and have faith with me. If there is any thing that we can work it out. I will ask you to talk about it. We will work it out with our best. 

Udo??  

哭一向是我不屑的

但是週六晚上我止不住的淚水，其實是真的不知怎麼跟你說我認識Kingsley 

有些事情不是不跟你說

是我不知道該怎麼說

因為發現你很容易因為對象是我，然後就控制不住自己的怒火！

其實會不由的控制不住自己亂想！

若失去你或是你佛手而去或是..........其實好像我的安全感也很不夠!

你說我是你的驕傲，不喜歡不願不希望我接觸任何非洲人，因為人言可畏！

我不反駁你，但是這其實在任何地方國家的人都會有。聖經說舌頭是最厲害的武器，我不太在意別人說啥，但是我在意你的不開心！

周六晚上你說，你會調適自己，因為愛上了，所以你不管其他人說啥了！你說你管不了那麼多了？（突然想問，其實你在氣自己還是在氣我，我是不是要問清楚我是不是應該直接當下講清楚呢？）

你要我不要接觸黑人，我想假如我跟你說我要做Refugees 義工，你會怎樣？

最近發現你好容易暴走歐？ 工作壓力大？

Papa你知道嗎？你對我來說很重要可不可以讓我一起分擔，不要都自己扛？

煩躁～

週六晚的對談與相處，讓我發現我真的撿到寶了！

你其實記得我所有講過的話，而且你盡量避免不要的麻煩！

我第一次這樣被人呵護著，說不感動是假的！


最近很容易煩躁～

大家都有很多意見，大家的意見都很極端～其實會很容易不耐煩！

其實這是我的人生，可以讓我自己選擇嗎？



其實我應該也不會鳥其他人的意見～

所以..........

謝謝你們的愛～

I will be fine by the Lord's take care~